There are times when my heart just aches for the pains of those special people in my life whom I love so deeply. It hurts to hear someone has cancer, loses a job or a loved one, has trouble dealing with an aging parent or child with special needs, broke up with their significant other, didn’t get some opportunity they were hoping for, is blasted by a health problem that will impact their life forever. What do you say? How do you express that you are twisted inside for them without taking the focus off their needs? How do you say I want to ask God, too, why this happened? I want to run and scream and kick and yell about it all. It’s not fair.
If I had to visualize myself and the ones dearest to me I would say we move about in circular formation. Someone is always in the center and the rest are encircled around. Everyone, unintentionally, gets a turn in different positions. Sometimes it can be for happy events. Other times we are at the other end of the spectrum.
We all, hopefully, have a handful of people who weave their arms together when it’s our turn for the middle position saying we are here to love you and protect you. We want to celebrate you. We will help you stay safe. We’ve walked on similar ground -learn from my experience.
These people float in and out of position depending on the season. Everyone gets their chance at being in the middle- needing the love and assurance. To me it’s like that wonderful feeling of standing at the end of a platform with a dozen people on the ground telling you to trust them, and when you fall back they actually catch you. But we don’t need a dozen people. We need the ones God designed to walk in and out of lives at different times who will be strong enough to catch us know matter where they are or how many.
Six months or so ago I was in the center of the circle with my pains and problems and one day I reached out to three or four people and I asked them to pray for me. I was never in the habit of asking for much help, let alone asking for prayer. Unfortunately, as I was getting close to the last straw and had exhausted everything else- it was time to ask for help in prayer. Had I been wiser it would have been prayer first.
All of my pray-ers were warriors. Then I had this vision and it dawned on my between the relatives who cared so deeply and my dear, dear friends I was encircled by powerful love that felt it could overcome anything. Each warrior had their unique way of helping me and it built a force around me of protection. Of strength. Of hope.
It didn’t take away my pain immediately, but it made me stronger. I learned from these very wise people. I heard their challenges and saw their outcomes. I was capable of moving forward. My situation was not going to stay the same forever. There was going to be a way out.
I don’t know if God works this way, but maybe for that day, when I felt so encircled by warmth God sent me His angels as these loved ones whom I trusted and cared for so deeply.
The circle is never ending as you know. Sometimes you are inside the circle, being hovered over allowing people to surround you with love, caring, prayers, and their wisdom. In this position, open your heart let their spirit in- and let His Spirit in to change you and give you the peace you can’t find on your own.
When it’s time for you to be a warrior come with non-judgmental love, wisdom, listening ears, tears of sympathy, touch. Hold tightly to and with the others around the circle as each one of you brings a unique gift to the one in the middle. Your arms woven together are strong.
We flow in and out of position in our circle. Some circles are small and some are large. Each member has a role at different times based on the gifts from God. Importantly, when you are in the middle don’t rush to be on the edge of the circle. Let time heal and allow yourself to be loved and prayed for. Let your pains, hurt and anger leave your inner core like smoke escaping from a burning fire. It doesn’t have to be fast. You need some of that to help you work through it all.
Circles are made of people from all walks of life. Sometimes the members of the circle are only there for a short time. Sometimes it’s a lifetime. Cherish them all and let them in. Mostly, remember that when your circle takes a rest and puts their heads down on their pillows at night there is one member who is vigilant and awake at all times. He is God and He loves you.